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If you like Oprah like I like Oprah, you’ve been checking out the various shows on OWN – Oprah Winfrey Network. One I knew I wanted to see is Why Not? with Shania Twain. I have loved Shania’s music ever since she came out with The Woman in Me. At the time, I worked part-time at Circuit City as a sales person and her video played repeatedly throughout the store.
Like many others, I felt mesmerized by her voice, her beauty and her authenticity. I could feel that her lyrics came from a true place inside.
As I watched her show, heard her tell the story of unraveling and losing her way – in the process losing herself and her voice – I felt a surge of tears that came from someplace true inside of me. She spoke of not being able to sing, of not being able to write songs, of not being able to find her voice, and I knew that feeling. I’ve been there. I have stood outside of myself wondering why I couldn’t force myself to just ‘do’ what I knew and had done before.
My tears flowed not for her pain, but for the thought of her never writing a song or singing again. I could not fathom never hearing another song written from her heart. I felt that if she never sang again, this world would be less because of it. I cried for the loss I felt inside my heart and the ache I felt for the songs my heart was already connecting to and longing for – something I had no conscious awareness of!
The intensity of the feelings overwhelmed me because in that moment I realized this is how God feels for each one of us…when we do not express what is true inside, when we withhold our beauty…our highest expression of the love we are, then the world is less somehow.
I sat, by myself, watching Shania struggle to reconnect to her voice again, and I knew, in that moment, we are all the same. And, it is this connection that uplifts us and others all at the same time. Each one, a shiny gem of the divine, sparkling like a radiant diamond.
That path back to this connection is different for each one of us, but it is essentially the same process…surrendering, trusting and, eventually, opening to the love we are.
We are all worthy of expression… each person’s as valuable as every other person’s. Let your light and love shine!
Hey everyone, thanks so much for your well wishes. I didn’t get a call back, though Ellany Cevan, did!! Send your well wishes her way…let’s share the love! Ellany, Brandon (her husband) and I went to the auditions at 4:45 am. We arrived just before 5 am. There were hardly any people there – maybe 100 or so. We were numbers 22, 23 and 24 in Line D. They took groups with 12 people each and we pitched ourselves and our show ideas to one person from the OWN crew. Ellany nailed it and totally deserves to be there! PLUS, she set an intention LAST YEAR (before the contest was even announced) that she was going to have a show on the OWN network. That’s what I call INTENTION, baby!
What I learned from going for it:
1. Going big with friends is better. If you don’t make it, then you still get to celebrate for your friends, and if you do, then they can celebrate with you!
2. Just going big feels amazing. As we stood in line, we patted ourselves on the back for just DOING IT. I am still feeling the expansiveness of possibility despite not getting a call back. “This or something better” for my highest good is my motto!
3. It’s not as scary as you think it’s going to be. In my mind, I thought it was going to be a much bigger deal than it was. It was really simple, really laid back and the people were awesome – those trying out and those working with OWN (of course).
4. When you put yourself into greater possibility, you want to stay there. Even as we were waiting in line, I was exclaiming, “THIS feels A-MAZING…what else can we experience?”
5. You always get a gift for yourself. For me, just filling out the application was a gift to see and consider things I haven’t thought about in years. Clarity came in the form of… yes, life is FULL of possibility!
6. I have so many people who love me. Your emails and well wishes touched my heart – thank you!! What a gift to enjoy those. Brandon and Ellany came to spend the night since the tryouts were just 10 minutes from our house (is that lucky or what?). We had so much fun the night before we stayed up all night!
7. Breaking barriers is fun. When I was in Junior High, I made it to the second round of cheerleader tryouts but felt I would not make the squad. Rather than ‘fail,’ I quit. The reason why was I didn’t want to be embarrassed by ‘losing.’ Today, nearly 30 years later, I’m realizing there is no embarrassment in losing something that was never yours to begin with! Isn’t that so funny? Leaving that behind was a huge gift.
8. Thinking you could do something someone else is doing as you are watching them is NOT the same as actually doing it. We’ve all watched people trying out and thought, “I could do that.” Well, I can tell you that LIVING your life and EXPERIENCING it is not nearly the same as watching others live their lives. GO FOR IT!! For years, I really thought I WAS living my life but what I was really doing was living it vicariously through watching others. My intuitive nature allowed me to do that. Boy, LIVING is so much better!
9. Only I can decide for myself. I decided I was going and I knew what I wanted was the feeling of I did it! I showed up! And, boy, did I get that feeling and then some. It was awesome!
10. If you don’t try, you’ll never get the chance. Mark’s mom said to me, “Well, if you don’t go, you know you won’t get a chance!” Mark says, “If you want to win the lottery, you’ve got to buy a ticket. I would add, “and you must claim it too!”
I’m so inspired by the experience, I’m wondering what else I can do with this energy!! Where can you ‘go for it?’ in your life? Do it today… jump in, the water’s fine!!
P.S. Mark is going to post some pics. The crew made jokes that they weren’t going to judge us on what we looked like in 100 degree weather. It wasn’t yet 100 degrees, but it was HUMID and my hair was frizzing to the max! LOL
