Posts Tagged ‘Love Yourself’
About a month or so ago, I attended an author’s panel at a local group. There were nine of us authors who were asked to attend to talk about the ins and outs of writing a book, publishing a book and so forth.
One of the things that I took away from the evening is a greater commitment to share with the world God’s love for them no matter who they are (including myself). The catalyst?
A well-known personal development guru who shall remain nameless.
When I arrived, I pulled out my new book, Must Be Present to Win and put it on the table along with my first book, The Power of Love. Yes, we were at a business get together, but since most of my clients are business people who take more trips to the ditch than most would dare admit, I really didn’t think much about it.
A friend who is a publicist, came up and suggested I give this person a copy of my book, which I did. She admitted that she was primarily there to get guests for her syndicated radio show. That seemed great to me as I had just heard of her a couple of hours before the gathering. Before that, I had no idea who she was – never even knew she was supposed to be a ‘big deal.’
I gave her my book. She thanked me for it. And, offhandedly turned around and asked me why I wrote it.
I told her I had a crisis that gave me an amazing experience with heavenly beings and that I documented the tools that came out of that experience in the book. I didn’t tell her that I felt it was the least I could do to thank all of the people, the messengers who came to help me find my way back to the living.
She said, “So your faith is important you?”
I said, “Absolutely.”
She said, “Well, mine is EVERYTHING, if you know what I mean. And, if yours isn’t mine, then you don’t get on my show.”
The energy she exuded was firm and she spoke forcefully. I started to feel sick to my stomach. For about 10 seconds, I allowed this energy to affect me, but then I said to myself, “No. I don’t have to accept this. I know God loves all of us.”
For me, I have done my best to share a message of love and hope to people. I’m not perfect, and often fall short of the aim even though Jesus is one of my guiding lights. He has shared with me…“Do not worry about the religions of the world. I know every heart. Every heart is mine.”
Most of my clients are Christian…usually they have drifted from their faith and are looking for comfort. Jesus is the Divine Comforter and Compassionate Heart. This is why every heart is his. He is within every heart already. To know Him, is to simply return to your heart.
I walked away from the event knowing this person was a Messenger for me. Her message? “Do you accept yourself wholly for who you are?”
In that moment, I began to accept myself in a way that is courageous. I am what I am. I am intuitive. I can hear divine guidance. I do have a high level of discernment, so not only can I hear it, but I can see who the messenger is and know who it is that has brought the messages. This means I am a medium, in the vocabulary of today.
I do assist others to reunite with their Truth, their divinity. And, yes, my faith is very important to me, and, yes, most of the people who attract to me are Christian. I didn’t ask for this. Jesus came to me when I was a little girl. He has asked me to help his people – all of his people – just as he has requested of me my entire life.
So, I thank this person for bringing the gift that has allowed me to walk courageously in a world that may not always understand that God works in mysterious ways, and brings messengers of light in many different packages.
Mark said something to me the next day as I grappled with the message I’m sharing here. He said, “You know, every person is one experience away from changing everything they believe.” The truth of what he said was undeniable. I’ve seen what one encounter with the divine can do for a person. And, this, ultimately is why I continue to be who I am.
Susie Jordan, my soul sister friend from the one heart tribe sent me this. Wow, what a gift! I hope you enjoy. I love you, too.
Sivan…what a gift you have given us. Big hug.
P.S. I hope back to school brought fun, joy and loads of memories for all of you students, parents and kiddos. The kids in this video…wow, so sweet!
It’s been three months exactly from my first post on easy weight loss. So much has happened! I wanted to share some of what has been going on, what I’ve heard from others who have been sharing their results and some thoughts I’ve had in between.
On the subject of feeling…I remembered back in high school when I used the ‘feelings’ (energy) of others to lose weight. At the time, I had no idea what I was doing, but now I know exactly what I was doing and why I got the results I did. Back then, I was a very overweight 13 year old. I wanted desperately to wear cool clothes and to be part of the ‘in’ crowd. One day, the idea to ‘pretend’ to be like one of the ladies I saw who was really thin (fit never entered my mind, I wanted to look thin!) popped into my mind.
What I was doing energetically was connecting to these women as a collective. The more I tuned in to their energy, the more my behavior changed. That was the summer I became anorexic, but I really wasn’t ‘consciously’ doing it…I was simply following the energy and doing what came to me. The energy of the collective was controlled. I remember wanting a candy bar one day and this constraining feeling came to me instantly…control, resisting = good. The more I tuned into control, resisting and the feeling of achievement with being these, the less I ate. The less I ate, the better I felt. Remember…control, resisting = good. I lost 80 lbs. in just over 3 months. I mastered my body in the most destructive of ways. Whew! That’s when I also tuned into the compulsive exercising energy, too. Let’s put it this way… no one should be working out 11 hours a day – ever.
Alas, I have vowed to master and commit to my physical in the highest way for all parts of me this time – once and for all!
So far, this is what has happened:
1. I have really felt intense love for my body – flaws and all. I had a photo shoot and really had fun! Mark and I did our first video that was equally as fun. I just really don’t have the desire to judge my body at all. I appreciate how adaptable it has been and how strong it is. Others have sent emails saying that they are also feeling more love for their bodies – where they are, right now. The journey doesn’t feel like a competition with time, it is just a trip to feeling good physically, emotionally, spiritually and mentally. Isn’t that cool?
2. At some point in the last three months, I had an epiphany around shifting from the inside-out. The point is to let go of all of the ‘trappings’ of the external reference point that affect the internal. These include anything that feed the part of me that habituates to ‘keeping score’… the measuring, the results, the getting to a destination… all of these energize the part of me that has helped me be very successful, but has also created an unhappiness that keeps me from being me. I let go of measuring through scales and measuring tape (an old friend). The clothes sizes…the noticing is as it happens… I’m not focused on them, they are simply part of the experience.I’ve gone down two sizes in my shirt size. My oversized workout t-shirts look like night shirts now. It’s almost time to go shopping for new under garments. VS…here we come! It’s like praise of any sort… nice, but not necessary.
3. The day I remembered my experience from 13 years old, the memory literally just popped into my mind. I thought, ‘Well, I don’t want to go that far again…but I could definitely tune into a ‘fit’ energy and work from that flow of what is best for me.’ So, I’ve been doing this (not regularly like I did before), and it is fascinating how wonderful it is to have a boost. There’s a flow to eating what I want (including chocolate cake and pie) or what I’m craving, and cutting back in other areas without ‘thinking’ about it. It’s been fascinating. I have the most incredible urges to work out… like I used to. I’ve done it once. Now that the book is put to bed, I’ll spend some time exploring how I want to work out now. Walking is always a welcome way to connect with my body.
4. I also noticed that there’s an energy or feeling to truly desiring something intensely. At 13, I intensely wanted to change my body that I didn’t like. At nearly 42, I simply love my body and want to enjoy it in every way I can. I don’t have an intensity to change like I did before. I don’t loathe myself. Surely there’s an intense desire I can connect to now. I keep going back to that free wheeling image I got at the start of this journey… cartwheels in the backyard. There’s absolutely the yummiest, free feeling associated with it. The childlike feeling I’m experiencing internally is a match to cartwheels and jumping on the trampoline. That feels good. I’ll keep you posted if new things come up.
5. Noticings. I’m not sure what this one means, but I’ve been noticing how small people’s shoulders are. We watched Back to the Future (the first original movie) and I noticed how tiny the people were in that movie. I’ve been noticing this in other situations as well. We watched Father of the Bride and the people in that movie appeared to be even smaller. I never noticed this before. As I’ve been noticing their smaller shoulders, I’ve also noticed my own. Wow, isn’t that interesting? I’ve also been noticing athletes. Perhaps my inner athlete is waking up. Isn’t this so much easier?
One last thing. During the last two weeks of getting my book to press, and as I relapsed into my old achiever ways, I noticed that I ate unconsciously and ravenously. I would reach for coffee and tea like old friends, and keep going. The sharp contrast between my joyous creating of the weeks before with the pressure being applied (errors in the graphics and a deadline of announcing the book’s arrival) brought back unconscious old habits. I noticed these, and vowed to set a schedule, work environment that uplifts me and allows me to love myself. Life really is too short to live any other way.
Send me your stories…letters[at]TinaFerguson.com I’m collecting these for my book that will share this process and share with others how they can do it too!
How People Find Us.
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- anorexia tape
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- little Girl on massive trampoline
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For those of you wondering WHERE I have been (thanks for your emails – I’m doing fine, really!), I invite you to listen to last week’s Queen of Dreams Radio show. I’ve had an interesting few weeks of upgrading energetically to a new way of being. Absolutely everything had to go that was not true. I literally have been sick from trying to do things the forceful way!
If you are sensitive, most likely you are also experiencing dramatic shifts. I hope my show will assist you as you flow into a greater Presence and all that you truly are.
Love,
Tina
Alrighty, let’s get into the details of this life experiment #45873. 
Just kidding. I know I am part researcher by nature, so I love to do experiments all over the place. Why not do one for easy weight loss?
So, let’s just dive into some starting details.
1. I am not one of these people who hates themselves when they are out of shape or overweight. I actually have the opposite issue… inside of me, I feel amazingly attractive and people tell me all the time how beautiful I am (which I feel comes from inside), so when I get a photo where I realize I really do need to lose some extra pounds, it is almost weird because that isn’t how I feel.
2. #1 presents a big challenge because I have to remind myself to think of myself in a different way. And, it also points to the fact that somewhere, lurking way underneath the surface, there’s a hidden image that keeps me where I am.
3. I’ve dealt with my weight… excess or otherwise (I’ve also been anorexic)… ever since I was a little kid who was a bit ‘thick’ for my build. Now, with my own son, I can see – literally – that we are just thick people. That’s how God made us. We will never be a thin build, and that’s okay.
4. I had an epiphany a couple of weeks ago as I worked with a client. I stated very matter of factly that creation works extremely predictably. As I said it, I could feel this energy underneath focused like a laser beam on the words as they tumbled out of my mouth. Wow. Okay, let’s do this! I use these principles for everything else…why not for health? And, that’s when I realized that weight loss is the ONLY thing I go OUTSIDE of MYSELF for an answer. This is a long-standing pattern.
5. #4 tells me WHY even my rising at pre-dawn really wasn’t moving the needle on the scale. I made a DECISION back in December to lose this 80 lbs. (third time is the charm!) for the LAST time in MY WAY. I said to myself, “Self… we won’t be coming back here. This is the last time. We’ll do it our way and it will be our way for life.”
6. Here, we are.. on a precipice for a new dawn. Using creation tools for weight loss. I’ve tried everything else… isn’t this cool to be able to actually use my teachings to transform my body, too??? Whoa, I’m having a forest for the trees moment.
7. SO grateful, though! Really…
This is me in Hawaii … fit and active… and healthy and happy. Well, maybe a wee bit thicker, but still fit and active…and healthy and happy!