Posts Tagged ‘Courage’

Roaming Free

March 6, 2011

When I ‘decided’ to leave my ex, instantly the game of making a living changed for me. Suddenly, I believed there was ‘more’ available and instantly there was.

Five to six months before I actually left, my plan to leave was already at work. The initial boost came in the form of a job. I simply asked God for a job and was told, “tell others you are looking.” I knew exactly one person to tell, so I told her.

I had exactly two weeks to find something. I had been working for a shady CPA, making much more per hour than he truly wanted to pay…again, following guidance, I asked for more and got it. I say he was a ‘shady’ CPA, but in reality he was a con man who was not a CPA, but a bookkeeper masquerading as a CPA. He was playing his part. I was playing mine. I could do a full week’s worth of ‘work’ in less than 2 hours. I systematized and streamlined all of his ‘work’ and could do it in my sleep. I spent the rest of my time talking to the people next door who ran a small embroidery business. I would take the cordless phone with me to answer the two or three calls that came in each day – all a result of the marketing letters I sent out each day. The occasional credit card company would call and quickly I pieced two and two together and realized that this guy was using someone else’s credit cards.

I woke up one day and knew my free ride was nearly over, and asked God to help me find a new job. That’s when I told my one friend at the junior college I was looking.

I didn’t know it then, but I was at a crossroads. Will I go right…literally, into my creative right brain? Will I go left…literally, into my structured left brain? I am what people call a naturally balanced hemisphere person. I am as Spock-like as I am wildly-creative. I had no idea what a gift this is, and so I told my friend I could do anything, which was true since I had done a bit of everything in the 100+ jobs I had held since I was 9 or so.

She called about a week later and told me she had a controller position open with one of her firm’s clients. Accounting – left-brained, okay, sure. She told me to send in my resume and I did. I sent it right over to the office where she was working in a similar position.

I just wanted a ‘job’ and I didn’t care what name the company had on it, what it paid except that it paid enough to pay my bills. To say I asked for nothing more than a job is not an exaggeration.

That’s when fate stepped in and said, You know what, you are more creative than you are structured…go this way.

What my friend did not know is that a position she thought the firm was eliminating was actually going to be filled. This position was a blend of right and left…HR and marketing. Behind the people skills most associate with human resources lies a highly-structured, extremely regulated paperwork. In addition to having a marketing and HR background, I was also an award-winning writer. This position called for the HR and Marketing Director to also write the newsletter each quarter.

My resume printed out at her office, but she did not receive it. Instead, the person leaving the firm grabbed it from the fax machine. As she read it, she could not believe the mix of skills and quickly took it to the firm’s managing principal.

Four days later, I began my new job.

That job paid me more money for 40 hours per week than any other job I had ever held. In fact, it paid me more money than I had ever made working two jobs. I felt rich, I felt fortunate. I felt like maybe, just maybe I could make it on my own.

The job gave me the financial courage to leave my marriage. To try. To see what was available in this world for me.

 

life crossroads

I discovered Jana Stanfield (where have I been?) last week – WOW! What an amazing voice, what an amazing spirit!

This song captures the feeling we had in mind when we (Kathy Garland and I) created Fearless Manifesting. Many of us know what fear feels like. I used to use fear like a weapon on myself. I would amp up fear to ‘get things done’ – what a torture device!

Imagine what you could do if you turned fear into power and power into action! Ask yourself…What would I do if I were brave? Let us know!