Yesterday, I shared an intimate view of how I work through limiting beliefs… for myself and with clients. It’s so much easier to spot the not with others! LOL
I had thought about what was shared and thought about some other perspectives that may not be as readily apparent.
For me… I truly feel like (in my heart) that we are all one (this is the reason Mark challenged me when I wasn’t acting like it)…when I am in bliss, I can hardly see the lines between us. It took me many years to figure out where ‘I’ began and ended energetically. When I give to another… I know that somewhere out in the cosmos, I’m being given to, and always in the moment as well.
This is trust at the highest level… letting go of the need to accumulate and ‘hold’ whatever it is you desire. Like the birds…they go, they have. Peace Pilgrim did it, too, to be a model of what is possible when we walk in peace and unity.
I remember when I was younger, before I learned to ‘force’ to ‘get’ what I wanted. Now, I look back and have to laugh at how I truly had everything given to me. I started playing tennis in 7th grade. That started out because I wanted to get out of gym class first period. Ugh! Can you imagine? Sweaty by first period? Adolescence? YUCK! This is the clearest memory I have of ‘figuring’ something out on my own instead of doing what I normally did – ask and follow. However, regardless of how forceful I ever became, my intuition always assisted.
I started by asking to change gym classes. The response – “no.” Then, I started asking if there was anything else I could do. I had made a decision to get out of that first period gym class – that’s for sure. But, then what? I went to the guidance counselor and she explained that if everyone wanted to change then it would be chaos. She made it sound like the city would crumble down if a bunch of 7th graders were given what they wanted. Hmmm, there’s got to be a way. Force –fully engaged.
During one gym class, a coach – the tennis coach – came to tell us about her sport. She was recruiting. I raised my hand, “What period is JV tennis?” The answer? Third period – right before lunch. I reasoned I would have until after lunch to get showered and ready for 4th period. I thought, there’s my ticket out of here!
Turns out I was pretty good at tennis. My love for the sport propelled me through high school. I eventually became the varsity team captain. Oh, and the wonderful reward? SIXTH PERIOD because once I got to THIRD PERIOD JV, I realized this was just a delay in my first period misery. Ah, force. The trappings of thinking you know what’s best for you!
Tennis, as you probably know, is a very expensive sport. VERY expensive. My mom did not have the funds for my new love. My grandmother shouldered most of the burden, but I see now that I attracted every experience I ever desired. I played at the local country clubs. I played at TCU. I won expensive equipment. I could never have ‘figured out’ how to ‘get’ these things… they came to me from sheer desire to have the experience. Each came in their own extraordinary way – even hitting balls at TCU a few courts down from Martina Navratilova! What a thrill.
The ‘work’ for what you want came in with the country clubs that were just given. Who could tell what was what? I decided I could handle the clothes part, thank you. And there it was… my first job at 13. Still, it was the best job for me… sleeping for a living. You can’t quite get away from what you are. I did… babysat at night by sleeping! Oh, sure, there was plenty of force right along with this as my teenage mind was driven to get what I want. I begged my grandmother for tennis clothes. Looking back on it, the guilt wasn’t worth it. I wanted the best, but we didn’t have a budget for the best. Every day I wore those clothes I got from force, I felt guilty for the money that went to pay for them.
Looking back, I see so clearly that my focus was on the experience I wanted to have in the areas where I could not figure out how something would happen. It was not on buying the things that would give me my experiences. This 20/20 hindsight is 20+ years in the making. I had it all along. Yet, I can see the differences in those things I had NO IDEA how to get vs. those I thought I did (like clothes). Had I been focused on ‘getting’ a country club membership, my journey would have been way different! I just wanted to play. I just wanted to go where my friends played. I wanted to see what it was like. Were the courts better like they said? My curiosity took me many places. Over and over again… delight to go and be part of something new.
Yes, we are all connected…and certainly, if you have the desire, you can have it.