One of the things I hear most from clients is how they can’t believe that these amazing divine messengers come to talk to them. Somehow in our world God, Jesus, and others are ‘out there’ and we are lowly beings that are ‘here.’
Because I’ve had experiences my entire life with the messengers, to me they are normal, regular folk. Yes, with special gifts of unconditional love, but definitely accessible. I have never called out to God directly or otherwise and not received an answer.
A few years ago I went to a workshop Betsy Bergstrom held in Michigan. I felt like I had to get there, and when I did, I had some of the most impactful experiences of my life. I’ll share some of the others in another post, but the one with Jesus has changed my life.
You see, I grew up in Fort Worth, Texas when I was little. Right in the heart of the bible belt. When I was three, I had an experience with Jesus and an angel. For years I had ‘felt’ things in the dark – during the daytime too – but especially in the dark. I would play games to keep my mind distracted. Open one eye and imagine I was as big as the room like Alice in Wonderland, close it and open the other one and then imagine I was tiny as an ant so I could scurry under the mattress if anything tried to come near me.
One night, as I laid on my side closing one eye and then the other, I could see the light from the hallway coming in on me, but then, in the corner next to the doorway, another doorway opened up and a beautiful luminous angel came in. She was all sparkly and light. For some reason, I wasn’t afraid. I just looked at her mesmerized with her light, and then, right behind her was a man with a long robe and long hair. I don’t remember a beard, but I do remember how I felt. I felt safe. Cutting through the fear, I felt safe in his presence. He was illuminated, too, just not as translucent as the angel.
He told me his name was Jesus, and He told me he knew me, and that there was nothing to be afraid of. I would always be in His care and supported. At the time I don’t know that I realized what that meant, but those words would sustain me many, many times throughout the coming years.
I have talked with Jesus over the years, but I have not ‘seen’ him in clear sight since that night. During Betsy’s workshop, he came through so clearly, speaking and addressing my fear of sharing who I am with others.
He said, “Tina, there is no heart I do not know. Set aside your concerns about religions and care for my people. There is not one heart that I do not know and who does not know me.”
As clear as that was, it would take many other experiences before I would truly be able to release the fear created after I saw Jesus when I was three.
As that little girl, I went ‘looking’ for him, and people told me to go to church because that is where Jesus is. When I went to church, I went alone on a bus as no one else in my family went to church. When I asked people at church where “Jesus” was because I wanted to talk to Him, I was told that Jesus is all around. When I told them I had seen Him and wanted to sit with Him and talk to Him, then I was told that was impossible and that people who say they can do that are evil. I was told the bible talks very specifically about people who say these things.
Now, 37 years later, I find all of this so hard to believe, but I look at my own child who at 3 seemed like he was 8, and can believe it.
It took many, many years to accept myself for who I am…intuitive gifts and all. But one thing I know for sure is that Jesus loves ALL the children of the world, yes including you, He told me so.
And, since I’ve let go, many, many people who have left Jesus have begun to have a new relationship with Him. I see the grace and presence I knew way back then as these people embrace the Jesus they’ve always known in their heart.
I don’t know why these things happen, all I know is that He is responding to many people who are calling to Him right now. He is the message, I just happen to be lucky enough to be the messenger.