Archive for the ‘ON Mission’ Category
The day came and went. It was official, the conference was a bust. My coping techniques, learned as a child, were to plaster a smile on my face and to address one thing at a time.
First up was to pay all of the speakers. I wrote out checks from my credit cards to pay the speakers. I was exactly $34,500 short. I had exactly enough to pay everyone except for three speakers who were booked to one speaker’s bureau. With speaking engagements, you agree to pay the speakers even if the event doesn’t happen. As a business person, I get that. It makes sense.
I dragged myself out of bed each day and one step at a time I addressed what I needed to.
Amazingly, at the end of my credit and my rope, for some reason, the speaker’s bureau called and told me I didn’t need to pay the remainder for these speakers. I could not believe it. What a gift! I celebrated and was thankful, but was too wounded and too consumed with the mess to even be able to see the invisible hand at work in my life.
Not only did the conference burn to the ground, but so did all of my business relationships with people I had spent a decade with helping them succeed in their own endeavors. I felt as if I was standing in a cave and someone took a blowtorch to my life. Everything was gone. Burnt to the ground. My family remained in tact and I had a few friends left. For that, I felt so grateful.
A funny thing happened during this time, which helped me understand the world…people at large in a much more compassionate way. My can-do attitude was replaced by mind-numbing torrents of drivel. Thoughts came over and over again. I literally could not get it to stop. I felt numb.
After the initial step-by-step addressing of the ashes and cinder, I realized I needed to find a way to fund all of the checks I had written.
One morning, about four months later, I stumbled down the stairs to check email. I did not have a solution, and what reserves I had in the form of my cashed-in 401(k) were dwindling fast. I received one email from a woman I did not know. She invited me to an event. I felt pulled to go, but in my fugue I didn’t want to. I forced myself to go anyway.
I would meet the company at that event that I would work with for nearly 7 months and that would help me shift and begin to move again.
Even though the invisible hand was at work in my life…nudging me to go, guiding me to gifts, I still could not see it. I could not feel anything I was so utterly numb. I couldn’t see it at the time, but it was not unlike the post partum depression. And, again, I could not claim the gift that was sitting there waiting for me to grab it.
I felt obsessed, consumed by the debts that chided me each morning. I had to let go, but I didn’t know how.
How People Find Us.
- over stressed
- the rhythm of my heart
- where to find wedding invitations in scroll forn
- different type of wedding invitations
- where to find wedding invitations in scroll form
- wedding invitación
- TRADITIONAL OLD SCROLL STYLE WEDDING INVITATIONS
- depressive
- scroll masquerade invitations
- different marriage invitation cards
Every day I get the pleasure of talking to people with big dreams. I may talk to them as a client or perhaps through an occasional email. Either way, I often peer into the heart of people’s secret desires.
Ever since I was a little girl I wondered what put people on one side of the street as the ‘haves’ of the world while the others were content to sit on the other side of the street as the ‘have nots.’ This question has driven me throughout my life to read – fully digest – hundreds if not a thousand or more biographies, success books and the like.
Today, at 42, my view of the world is very different than it was when I was 4 and began to see the world as fragmented in its seeming reluctance to dole out abundance. Today, I realize that what we receive in this world has every bit as much to do with who we are and what we believe and how that translates into how we move in this world.
Lady Antebellum, the white hot country-singin’ trio, picked up five Grammys at the Feb. 13 music awards show. This, out of six nominations, for a trio that has won year after year.
I’ve been listening to them since the first year I discovered them on the Academy of Country Music Awards in 2008. When I heard them sing, I thought, ‘Who is that? And, where have I been?’ That year, they took home Top New Group.
But what you may not have heard from Hillary Scott, the soulful crooner of Lady A’s amazing lead vocals is that she was rejected TWICE for American Idol. Didn’t even get through to the second round!
What? Boy, are we glad she didn’t believe American Idol judges that she just didn’t have the stuff to make it in the music biz, right? I mean, REALLY? What would the world be without their chart-busting songs, I Run to You and I Need You Now?
I believe the only thing that stands in between you and your dreams is you. Do you face a setback and accept it…believe it…use it as justification for the small you who doesn’t believe? Or, do you use it as kindling to stoke the fire inside, to look again at what is possible and to move again toward what your heart knows is true?
People ask me all the time, “How do you know if you are just lying to yourself or if you are just facing reality?” This is what I say: In each of us is the heart of a giant and also the heart of a coward. The key is to spend time in the giant more often than you do in the coward. If you know that you know that you know you are here to be a doctor or a writer or an artist, spend time with that part of you…feed that part of you…nurture that part of you…and then move with that part of you. When you know that you know, the challenge won’t feel like a closed door, it will feel like a window just opened.
That’s the difference between those who give up and those who keep going. Only you will know when you have truly given up on yourself. Dare to tell yourself the truth.
So, I am writing this today for all of you who have a dream the size of Texas in your heart to write a book, to be a singer, to be an artist, to simply ‘be’ whatever it is that you know you are here to be… to remind you to believe in yourself…even when others are telling you, “Nah, what are you kidding? You don’t have what it takes!”
When you hear anything like that… from others, from your critic inside, just think of Hillary and Lady A and think…’The world and I deserve to see what is possible if I really go for it.’ Then GO FOR IT!
You have a gift that only you can share with this world. Do you dare?
I spent the day over at Miss Debbie’s and she gave me a vintage valentine’s day card. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE those little valentine’s from the 20s, 30s, 40s and 50s. Remember taking your valentines to school with x’s and o’s on them? And, the lollipops or multi-colored chalky hearts with little sayings stamped on them? So sweet.
Violette is doing a Valentine’s Giveaway with her sweet Cupcake Girl in a soldered pendant. This is a sure, sweet way to share the love with yourself every day.
Go there to sign up for a chance to win!
How People Find Us.
- violette ca
Ever get a message in many ways? Well, this is what happened to me this week. I received an email from a friend who was reading my blog and he told me he felt downright sparkly after reading it. And another reader emailed to tell me she felt like I really ‘got’ how she felt.
I had been wondering…Is my blog something I should continue to do? Does it make a difference? Am I connecting heart to heart in a way that matters?
I got my answer in many, many ways…and Beverly sent this post to me…for you. As much as I share and serve to remind…LOVE YOURSELF…I still find myself in tears of gratitude to be loved so deeply.
Enjoy!
Love,
Tina
Sometimes the things that are right in front of our noses … those beautiful every day things … are the most important messengers, but because they are there every day … we might tend to love them, yes, but also quickly move on to the next, and the next, and the next thing in life … without stopping to say “Thank You. I Love You” …
So I am stopping right here, right now … in the midst of just a little J chaos in my home as I prepare to have all the old flooring replaced with new… and this is what I am stopping for … to say Thank You Tina … and I Love You Tina … for all you do and for all you are and for sharing with sooooooooooooooooooooo much joy about beauty-full Life.
I had taken a moment in the midst of my to-do list to read your Blog. There I was transported from my world of ‘to do’ to a world of ‘done’ … beautiful hand-painted silk scarves … a young boy who got his magical snow day … a snowman made by boys in shorts and sandals and one big dog who knows he is a person too … parties where joy abounded, so much so that it spilled out into Tina’s Blog and into my home and my heart.
When I went downstairs and looked at the ‘chaos’ again … everything seemed brighter for some reason … the bags, the boxes, the files had taken on a sort of whimsical energy … and what once felt like work now felt like playful interaction with all that awaits my participation in the game of life !!!
So I started thinking … where else is Tina gifting her beautiful messages in my life and in the lives of so many others. I just had to smile … talk about a big list! … I think everyone can relate to what I mean here! I have concluded that Tina’s life itself is one big beautiful message she is sharing with us all … and how lucky are we because each precious moment is infused with such love and joy it literally infuses us with love and joy too! What a precious blessing that is!!!
So this one is for you dear Tina … a Miracle Messages of Love through your beautiful Heart and Soul … with deepest gratitude and a big hug!!!
Shared with You with Love, Beverly…
How People Find Us.
- volkswagen van
- beautiful pictures of hearts
- heart and soul and love blogs
- Love Hearts with messages
- pictures of messages with love
- photos with beautiful messages
- you are beautiful heart and soul
- volkswagen van drawings
- messages of love
- love messages from the soul
Yesterday, I went to Sally Felt’s birthday celebration. We started at a thai restaurant in Dallas and headed over to PJ Spur’s MeetUp later that night for fun.
I literally felt SO happy, I felt like I had consumed many, many drinks. Sally said ever so nicely, “You know, if you can’t drive, we can drive.”
And, yet, I had had nothing to drink, not even coffee that day to explain my feelings of euphoria.
As I looked over at another friend who came to the celebration, I could feel love pouring out of every part of her…her eyes seemed to radiate love and her smile sparkled so brightly. I thought… this is how I feel, too! And, Sally is by far the most hilarious person I know…all the laughter left me literally drunk! (and you guys know I don’t drink at all)
I had spent most of the day working on a client’s ‘dream’…I had seen so much and I wanted to capture it in some type of picture. There’s much, much more too, yet the deeper I went into this energy, the happier I became…the more I thought about what this meant to her, to the world and to her clients, the more love pulsed through me.
By the time I arrived to pick up the birthday girl, I was already well into my own high vibe party!
That night as we drove home…and there is truly SO much more to this story… I’m trying to keep it on one chord as to ensure the message stays clear… I remembered why I do what I do….why what I am shows up in this place.
I do it because I want each one of you to have and be all that you are. I want for you the deepest dreams of your heart. I want for you to experience every wish your heart can imagine. And, when I dip into the wishing well with you, I am reminded how we are One. And, it is okay for me to have and be all that I am, too.
