Archive for the ‘Angels’ Category
I often share stories about how I ‘arrive’ at an awareness. Each person has their own way, I believe. Still, the steps are often the same.
In coaching and working with people for the last 20 years, I have noticed that most people’s ‘problems’ or ‘concerns’ are ‘bundled’ around two or three items – no more, ever. What this means is that no matter how big your problems might feel or seem, they are really held together by two or three ‘central ideas’ that, once you become aware of them, will lose their grip on you.
When I work with clients, I am searching for the linchpins so we can release them quickly so the person can move quickly.
Now, why I never decided to do this for myself in this area, I can’t tell you, but, as always, when I am ready…my soul is waiting for her turn.
When I was a little girl, I was a normal weight until I hit 8 or so. That’s when I started stuffing myself with sugar in all of its delicious forms. From boxes and boxes of Girl Scout Cookies to cakes, sugar became a dear friend. In high school, my favorite lunch was a Vanilla Coke and ice cream sandwich from Dairy Queen.
I played competitive sports and though I was never ‘thin,’ I was able to keep my weight down to about 25 lbs. overweight for most of my teens. This was a tremendous improvement from being 80 lbs. overweight before discovering tennis.
There have been times in my life when I have had absolutely no desire for sugar at all, but given the chance, would love to eat it.
In 2008, I learned I have ADHD though the doctors say I have ‘mastered’ my distractedness, the ‘H’ stands for hyperactivity, and people with ADHD (according to my doctor) have brains that naturally need more sugar. Our bodies are getting the message over and over again, “Hey, send some sugar on up here!” But, the problem is that if we feed our bodies refined sugar, then we set off an insulin response that dumps more adrenaline into the system.
It’s clear to me how I have literally been using sugar like a junkie to ‘get myself’ to do something. When I am ‘sugared up,’ I can drive right to a finish line. Luckily, nature is telling me my body can’t keep doing this.
Last week, a series of event led to one of my ‘sweetest’ epiphanies and I want to share this ‘journey’ with you.
I woke up one day at the end of March and ‘remembered’ that when I kicked my two-latte a day habit, I just asked the angelic realm for help. I said, “Angels, I don’t want to be addicted to caffeine any more and I don’t want to go through withdrawals, either. Please help me.” And they did. I just went about my business and a couple of days later, I just didn’t want them anymore. No headaches. No withdrawals. Just no cravings. After that, I could have a latte here and there without the impulse to keep drinking them.
So, in March, I thought, Ah, I just need to ask for help again with sugar. The ugly truth about ADHD in adults is that after years and years of overloading the body with adrenaline, the acid builds up in the body and starts to look a lot like fibromyalgia. I would literally wake up hurting from head to toe after a sugar binge. I certainly appeared to look like a junkie! My mother is 20 years and a month or so older than me, so I have watched her walk the path, and she and I went together to find a ‘cure’ back in 2008, and came home feeling like new people. However, there is no ultimate ‘cure’ other than to quit poisoning the system and stop the vicious cycle!
I took the cue to ‘ask’ for help and just like a charm, I left sugar alone for two weeks. I didn’t crave it or want it. I breezed by ice cream, cakes and soda. Then, I wanted to finish a project. I reached for my good ol’ standby…coffee loaded with cream and sugar. All sugared up, I flew through the project. If you have seen the movie Limitless, I am like the guy on NZT when I have my caffeine-sugar cocktail!
From there, I had some major decisions to make on my website. I tried, but nothing felt right. The truth is my intuition was talking, and I felt scared. I felt ‘frozen.’ I started eating ice cream like I couldn’t get enough of it. I am not a binger…but one ice cream a day is a lot for me. My favorite stress reliever is peanut butter chocolate ice cream.
All of these things are happening. I am eating the sugar, so I am numbed out. My breasts are screaming at me telling me to nurture myself, but I am trying to ‘get something done!’ My website! I have a deadline!!! It’s coming up!
Last Saturday, we attended a bar-b-que with many other families. I ended up talking to a friend about sugar. The topic of our kids craving sugar like little addicts came up, and, of course, we have seen this with Chance. My friend told me about an article she had read about Demi Moore and how she eats NO sugar EVER. And commented that she felt that was very ‘grown up’ to just say, “No” to sugar and be done with it. I mentioned that I had felt the same way recently, that it was time to ‘grow up’ about taking care of the physical. It’s not like I don’t have all of the ‘knowledge’ to do it. And, certainly, I feel MUCH clearer and less moody without the sugar highs and lows.
I am not sure what happened with that conversation, but as we drove home, I had many ‘noticings’ drop into my awareness. I thought of asking the angels and how that is a surefire way to definitely do away with the cravings. And, then I had some paperwork to submit for my degree plan, and I happened to see that Deepak Chopra says anxiety is pain projected into the future. I then remembered a dream I had a couple of months ago about being in my kitchen “creating” and not being able to ‘finish’ because I kept stopping to go eat peanut butter cookies (the wafer kind) with melted chocolate on them. Then I remembered when I feel anxious in a group of people, often because I am not grounded, I will drink a cup of coffee with cream and sugar to ground my energy quickly.
It was as if a reel of clips played out on top of my consciousness! I realized in that moment that the only time I reach for sugar is when I am anxious. And, just like I’ve seen with clients, the awareness of what is causing the chain of events set me free!
It is one thing to think you are a sugar junkie and to claim a huge burden of ‘stuff’ and it is quite another to know that each time I am reaching for sugar it is to 1. Drive over my anxiety or my intuitive sensitive side and/or 2. Avoid feeling what I am feeling in the moment and/or to feel SAFE. I realized, I ‘check out’ when I feel anxious or unsure. Sugar makes it easy to do this because it is like taking a numbing pill. I discovered sodas will put you into a comatose state!
When I told Mark about my discovery, he just looked at me quizzically and said, “So, you’ve always known you are an emotional eater?” But, that is not true! I eat sugar to squelch my feelings and to numb out what I am feeling. I went back in time and sure enough… I have done this over and over again when I have a HUGE DECISION to make and I feel UNSAFE.
Of course, Louise Hay in Heal Your Body cites the same thing for ‘overweight’ – Fear, need for protection. Running away from feelings. Insecurity, self-rejection. This is absolutely it… Self-rejection! I reject my SELF when I turn to this habit to ‘get through’ whatever I’m feeling.
I have been using sugar to lower the intensity of what I feel since I was a little girl! This is simply a habit formed by a little girl who had no other way to ‘protect’ herself from the energy she felt swirling around her in many ways. Today, I am an adult that can help with new strategies.
So, I have ONE thing to be aware of now. I can manage that. It feels so EASY! And, I know EXACTLY what to do when I feel these things (Spirit brought us the most amazing program last fall during Ultimate Well-being), but I must CONSCIOUSLY choose to do something else. Now that I am aware, I can’t go back to being ignorant. If I choose to eat sugar, then I will do so consciously now that I know this is my habit.
Another thing I noticed is that when I go ‘numb’ I feel that I lose weeks of my life to it. It is as if I ‘wake back up’ when I am ready to deal with the decision that needs attention. What I realize most is that the part of me that could ‘answer’ is silenced by the sugar…so managing the anxiety is important. I realize, too, I am not alone. There are many other ‘superstars’ who deal with this type of anxiety.
I believe awareness is key, though. Now, instead of feeling there is a huge mosh pit to be dealt with in the ‘sweets’…I can simply acknowledge my feelings in the moment and choose to stay conscious, and notice that if I am craving peanut butter and chocolate, there is some part of me that requires my love and attention. Life is too short to ride around with tire tracks on my back from driving over myself!
Feels like a whole new day!
How People Find Us.
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Thanks, Nancine, for your gifts!
How many times have you felt like you had to do everything yourself? I know I have in many ways along my life.
When I was in my 20s, I had to do everything myself because I had to have everything the way I liked it. I cringe now thinking of the times when I would re-do something someone else did (from the house not being clean enough to rewrapping a present with wrinkles in it!)
When I was in my 30s, it was all about everything I did being an extension of me. So, if my team (at work) did something, then I had to approve everything to ‘ensure’ it was ‘good enough’ to meet my high standards. Ugh! Talk about exhausting!
Now that I’m in my 40s, I’ve relaxed a lot (not entirely), yet a LOT about all of these areas. I realize that trust goes a L-O-N-G way and the more I’m willing to trust others, the more I attract others who are worthy of trust! Wow, such a deal!
Plus, I can use my personal power for good instead of trying to control things!
Yesterday, I talked to a friend who just had a baby. She was grappling with this idea of “I must do everything myself” and it’s first cousin, “Everything must come through me.”
Her baby has a super high metabolism and somehow more breast milk was needed. She had a choice to make…would she allow others to support her? Would she give up the need to be the way?
Once she decided what she most wanted (which equaled – Healthy Baby), then the decision was easy…I want whatever allows me to continue breast feeding and also gives my baby the most health. Soon, several other mothers showed up to donate breast milk and my friend has what she wants…healthy baby, breast feeding and support.
What I see is my friend’s beauty and love reflected back to her. She is ALL about community, she believes it does take a village to raise children, and believes help comes in many abundant ways.
Indeed!
Remember, just say yes…and, remember, you don’t have to do everything yourself! In fact, it can be so much fun when others join you!
It was the first day of 2011 and many inspirational messages were ‘arriving’ on my laptop; certain of them though were wrapping themselves around me in a powerful way … those messages that spoke of releasing old ways and making room for the new … messages like … “This is a new day at the start of a new year, and I choose a new way of being. I choose to be free of the limiting thoughts of the past and to not allow outworn habits or beliefs to control my life” and “Today is a day for freedom. Today is a day to be as the bird, singing and full of joy, leaving worries, troubles and regrets far behind.”
Usually on New Year’s day snow covers the ground here in Southern Ontario, but this year, instead, it was raining, and something was beckoning to me to walk in the warmth of this unusual day. Off I went, scarf triple wrapped around my neck, but not even thinking to take an umbrella. Well, it was all about washing away all that no longer served me anyway. Rain could only help.
I love the little park down the road. I am so grateful for the many times over the years this small patch of wilderness has brought me peace and solace. I have probably hugged at least half the trees there. Entering into the forest felt a little surreal … a carpet of beautiful golden autumn leaves, washed clear of snow, lay before me … no frozen-over crust of icy snow here.
I simply followed where my footsteps led … and then I saw it … glorious, but fallen … a beautiful large tree whose branches now graced the forest floor instead of the sky above. What was it that so attracted me to this amazing ‘work of art’ that lay before me? I knew it held a message.
Instinctively I bent down and lightly touched the large branch that had drawn my attention – its covering bark fell softly to the ground. What lay beneath took my breath away, for revealed under the surface was the golden glow of her wood … beauty that could never have been revealed to my eyes when this tree stood upright in the woods.
And so she had simply laid down upon the forest floor; she did not resist the new and attempt to right herself to an upright position again … her old familiar way. No, instead, she simply offered her beauty and her love in the present moment from the forest floor, and all was so very perfect.
My glance fell to the right of this beautiful tree only to see what lay beside her. It was a stone … and why might that be special? Special because it was in the shape of a heart. It was as if this tree had said to me, “You cannot take me with you, but, please take my heart … and let it remind you of our meeting and my message to you this day … if I had not released my gnarly blackened bark, you would never have come to know my true golden beauty hidden beneath.”
May 2011 be a blessed year for all … a year in which the awesome beauty hidden beneath our own ‘bark’ is revealed and shines brightly and joyfully into our World …
Shared with You with Love, Namaste, Beverly…
How People Find Us.
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I love the stories I hear from people, and there’s part of me that wants to capture these and share them with EVERYONE!
This is one of those Christmas stories…given by the same woman who shared the Christmas horse story last year. She is a magical woman with many miracles around her.
Lesley, thank you for sharing your heart and this precious story!
This is the story about my cousin, David, who was a State Trooper in Bowie, Texas, who died recently.
His death was unexpected and came when he hit a cow on the road and veered into an 18 wheeler back in September.
Since this is the first holiday season of his family’s loss, it has been particularly hard. Lynetta, his wife, shared that David lost his wedding ring more than 20 years ago on a baseball field. As, I’m sure she was thinking of David, she told this same story two days ago when Bo, their son, came home from college.
Last night, a friend came to the house with David’s ring!!!! Can you imagine? He said that he had been waking up with it on his mind since Thanksgiving. He noticed it as a random thought about all the times they had shared in 36 years, but decided to go to that baseball field and just commune with David and God.
While he was there, just talking out loud and scuffing around in the dirt, he noticed something shiny and couldn’t believe what he found – David’s ring!
Lynetta said that David ALWAYS gave her jewelry for Christmas and this one would be no different!!! She feels so blessed and so very loved and definitely in HIS presence.
Just remember… every day you have the opportunity to allow divine to work through you. You may be a special Messenger one day just like David’s friend! Are you listening?
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